- Brooke Candy - Happy Days
- I Don't Know What To Do... uploaded by Drew Disaster
- Border _ : A compassionate documentary on Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) FULL MOVIE
- Borderline Personality Disorder: 'I couldn't deal with the rollercoaster in my head' @ Telegraph -
- Their behaviour can be extreme but, in reality, women with BPD are not the volatile, untreatable monsters they fear they will be judged as. Lottie is still the warm, loving friend she's always been, and she's come a long way thanks to the brilliant, supportive therapist who helps her manage the condition."
- "If others really get to know me, they will find me rejectable and will not be able to love me; and they will leave me;I need to have complete control of my feelings otherwise things go completely wrong;I have to adapt my needs to other people's wishes, otherwise they will leave me or attack me;I am an evil person and I need to be punished for it;Other people are evil and abuse you;If someone fails to keep a promise, that person can no longer be trusted;If I trust someone, I run a great risk of getting hurt or disappointed;If you comply with someone's request, you run the risk of losing yourself;If you refuse someone's request, you run the risk of losing that person;I will always be alone;I can't manage by myself, I need someone I can fall back on;There is no one who really cares about me, who will be available to help me, and whom I can fall back on;I don't really know what I want;I will never get what I want;I'm powerless and vulnerable and I can't protect myself;I have no control of myself;I can't discipline myself;My feelings and opinions are unfounded;Other people are not willing or helpful." - @ BPD Family
- Dear Doctor @ Life after BPD - Can be read by loved ones as well. "A big obstacle is going to be my lack of self. I feel like a stranger in my own body, as if I’m not really there, I’m just observing. I feel apart from others when in company. I’m not the same as them, I don’t fit in. I’m an alien in a human body. I feel that I’m a hollow shell filled with BPD. If you rip out the BPD, there will be nothing left to hold me up. I will be empty. Even emptier. There lies a problem. The BPD makes my life hell, but it is my life. It is my only sense of self. By asking me to let go of the BPD you are asking me to amputate a huge chunk of myself.At times it’s possible I’ll become so distressed that I can no longer keep myself safe. If an admission is needed you need to be aware that this is a two edged sword. Although I will resent being contained, restricted, I will start to feel safe, secure. The rules and routines of a ward offer stability and security, things I crave. Keep me there too long and I won’t want to go back out to a world that’s unpredictable and ever changing. What works best for me is to have rapid access to hospital for short stays at my own instigation. This offers respite in a crisis (or ideally pre-crisis) and allows me to hand over responsibility for myself for a limited period so that I can have a break and re-charge."
- For Those Who Have Stayed By Erin Marshall @ TWLOHA -For those who have stayed:Thank you.I will be the first to admit that I am not easy to spend time with.It’s exhausting and frustrating for me, and I imagine it is equally as frustrating for you.I become irritable at the drop of a hat.I’m controlling. It sucks having incredibly limited control of my mind and the physical manifestations of my anxiety. To compensate, I crave whatever control I can get. Staying on schedule and having a routine is important because it provides me with something that I can count on.I may present as clingy or dependent to some of you, requesting your constant presence while going to the grocery store or the post office. Please know this is because I trust you to help me tackle a task that seems too daunting to do on my own. I apologize too often, convinced that even the simplest inconveniences are my fault. Please don’t get annoyed.I’m indecisive to the extreme. The fear of making the wrong decision means that the odds of ever getting a straightforward answer from me are likely zero. Please, if making me choose, at least limit it to two choices.I believe that everyone who puts up with me secretly hates me or finds me annoying. Please don’t take offense. I have the tendency to push people away. I often passive aggressively vocalize and push my frustrations with limitations onto those around me who are living a ‘normal’ life. It’s merely an expression of jealousy of the freedom you have. It has nothing to do with you. It is a poor coping mechanism that I unfortunately use to conceal what I consider to be a personal weakness. Please don’t take it personally.
- "I need you" - blog post @ TWLOHA
- Open Letter from those with Borderline Personality Disorder (With Narration and Text)
- "I know that I'm hard to love. Some days I'm all smiles and affection and then other days there's nothing I want more than to be quiet and lie in bed....Please don't give up on me.I know it's not easy but I'll always come back to you"